I remember for last year about the same time, I wish for a lot of things for the year. Some turn out to be real, some doesn't, some get worst , some just unexpected.
This year is particularly a priority shift year for me. Realized that I am not as capable as I can achieve, I do have limits on my body, mind and soul.
So much said of founding my own publishing company, yes I did it. A lot of people may expect that I will be super happy , but in fact this is the turning point of my priority shift. It got me thinking, I sacrifice so much on achieving the goal I forcefully set for myself, try to excel, try to win and win by all means necessary.
In fact, the sacrifices come crawling back to me. First I destroy my financial, which need a serious fixing. Second , my health is sounding an alarm, to be at the hospital for a serious nerve pain right before CNY is not fun at all. Third, something I shouldn't do between us which cause an irreversible effect FOREVER, thanks to my stupidity， it will never be the same again.
Found out that, I never be kind to myself, to treat myself better. I put my goals beyond everything that matters, which lead to ultimate disaster, mentally and physically. LOST.
Some said dragon year is the revival year, I think it is for me. I came to realize, sometimes something is just not to force upon. My priority is to start treat myself and other people better. Be strong inside, not outside. Success and wealth is not a necessity but a compliment.
Learn to "let go" in Dragon Year. Happy CNY to you.
真正随缘了才能顺利，真的放下了才能得到。
