Saturday 14 July 2012

I am sorry~~ T.T

Dear Shumun,

Although you might  never read this. But I just gonna say that I am sorry. Hah! I will say sorry to you leh~~~

Piggy~~(What I used to call you everyday) After more than 10 years, finally I realize why choose him but you didn't choose me. Maybe the path I choose is too hard for you. I understand that and there's nothing wrong with that.

Some time I remember our moment together. When I call you piggy and you were so shy till your face blushed.(Still do not admit by that time). Piggy... you are the only women I love for my live time though I might married someone but you just cannot be replaced.( Privilege of the first one..LOL)

Do you know I meet your bf everyday when I went to had my lunch when I was working at Fraiser business park? Hahaha, he certainly spot me!

Piggy~~ I am very happy you found your love, and it had been more than 10 years you guys were together. Faster get married, I wanna become the god father wei.

Piggy~ Do you remember when we say good bye? The moment when both you and me cry like mad and remind both of our bad habit?

I still remember I told you not to slept soo long, remember your goals, always find someone you love and stay with him. (Which you did! I am proud of you~)

And I remember you told me, not to be too ambitious, watch my spending, take care of my health and always go for my goal( Which I did as well....I achieve what I cannot imagine while I was more than 10 years ago)

Piggy~~ I am super happy for you. You got over me, but i never got over you. Maybe that's my curse.

My curse that I was so childish that time, never appreciate you and finally  now I realize how foolish I am. You given more than enough chance and I just neglect it. I was a jerk~~ a jerk that only look for accomplishment......How ironic while I got it then I realize what I lost, something so precious so precious.

It was a right choice to abandon me. It is a consolation we still keep in contact. Sometimes say hi and ask how are you etc.......that is more than enough.

Mun~~(Always what I called you when I manja you)..

Faster married, don't feel unsecured. I can see from you bf face he love you as much as I do.

Become a mummy~~

I love you always mun~

And I always miss you~~

Everyday, every night~~

Again, mun arr~~ I am sorry...对不起~~我不应该让你流泪~~我不应该~~当初我不懂原因,现在我懂,已经太迟了。对不起~~这个内疚应该会跟我一世人吧~~祝你幸福啊~


这也是我一直以来很想很想和你说的话~~埋在我心里没办法说。好好照顾自己,别忘记我们的承诺啊~~~~无论你是遇到什么,我还是会帮你,还是会在你身边。那时候你爆胎凌晨短讯我,我还记得。那时候我知道,你在完全找不到人的时候,会想起我。

Mun~~对不起~~对不起~~T.T

我永远想念你啊~~~