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Angelica,

Woi Cipet, 你走去KELANTAN躲！至少看到你很开心呢。你是我认识最最最久的一个女生。你最近好吗？看你的FB，很开心呢。side note, 你的干女儿很可爱叻！

好啦，我呢。失业中，就是一点中年危机，fuckup shit 的。可是还好啦。我已经知道我要做什么，我也知道我是什么人，应该做什么，怎么做。

就是想说，很想再见到你，kinda miss u. heheheh, 记得我们一起吃baskin robbin 吗？ 呵呵呵

希望你在KT开开心心，来到KL有时间找我和CATH哦。cath 搬到我家附近，大家都久不久一起喝酒HIGH然后发疯的。

你了解我，我也了解你。每次以前和你一起，当我不开心的时候，我会觉得你好金牛座叻！你永远会很固执的go for ur heart...牛啦

哈哈，可是就是这个执着，让我真的很珍惜你。我好幸运遇上你。你是唯一一个女生不会计较我好像周杰伦，蜗牛那首歌。小小的天有大大的梦想，一步一步往上爬。谢谢你。

如果有一天，我真能找到我的天。我希望和你一起分享，因为差不多10年了，老了。喝酒都不行了，跳舞可真不行了。哈哈哈

好啦，好好在KT照顾自己。

Dear fren, love you and take care k.. really miss u

Vince

离人

Choloee,

你还好吗？erm... 对不起，我真很对不起你。你要的我现在真给不到你，我根本没条件给你。可是我很爱你，我很爱你。那又如何，我连追你的信心都没了。。

Choloee, 我现在没什么事了。只想和你说，不要太博，休息休息。找找男生，开心开心。你的路很长，还很长。

你说的，如果缘分注定，肯定能的。缘分弄了一次，希望当我有条件，缘分能弄多一次。我只想让你知道，我真的很爱你。我不能让你感觉到我爱你，是因为我的自我问题，我的自我条件不足，我保护不到你。因为连我自己都很难保护，我怎么能保护你呢。

Choloee, 好好生活。我和上帝祷告，有一天，我们会再像上次那样又bump into each other. 那时候，我一定会抱着你和你说。。。我爱你，我不放你走了。我能爱你一辈子。

原来爱一个人，是如此。虽然我不知道你爱我不，可是。。谢谢你。

爱你的

Vince

Rain of Castamere

And who are you, the proud lord said,
that I must bow so low?
Only a cat of a different coat,
that's all the truth I know.
In a coat of gold or a coat of red,
a lion still has claws,
And mine are long and sharp, my lord,
as long and sharp as yours.
And so he spoke, and so he spoke,
that lord of Castamere,
But now the rains weep o'er his hall,
with no one there to hear.
Yes now the rains weep o'er his hall,
and not a soul to hear.

Trust

Ah ha! So long no blogging!

I gonna post this to the one I love the most that post the same title.

I shall skip all the topic of all hardship comparing and such.

BUT

I gonna say about GOD

Who is god right?

Stephen Hawking said the universe started from a big bang and thus question is there a god to create our universal world. As everyone engineering student we learned from scratch that there is universal law in quantum and physical physics that can't change. Such as why star collapse to create a singularity and etc ( not dwelling into too scientific)

I am the all believer of science, I was educated from young as a believer of science.

However if someone ask me is there God?

I shall say MAYBE?

Cause God gave me courage to go through you though  I still love you, but yeah I pray to God everyday that time ( if you know who you are)

However,

I question, if science such prove there is no god. AND if GOD is so good why leave people suffering??

This is the question I can't answer, only God can. And one of my best friend said, God answered you before you asshole.Yeah that is a good question, indeed God answered me many times.

SORRY, but i still question! AHAHHA

I am an ASSHOLE to god. ( Thanks to ancient aliens)

But if you are feeling down, hopeless, talk to god. Pray for him

And he will give u the light. As god said, Let there be light!! (My blog name)

No matter how I object God's presence as non science, non shit and just some asshole who paraphrase bible and I told them I fucking read bible you asshole!

I read bible more than you!!!!

And I start question God and start talking to God. I start realize someone talk back to me in abit. Heh!

I never dismiss God's miracle.

But, have faith in god my dear. I love you, God love you.

The path is hard but God will shove a light. Is your path, you will eventually go that.

And if you ask me, do I believe in God.

I said 50/50

However, I find bless and comfort in God's arm when I can't sleep when you reject me. Is that God's Miracle?

Your say

Sometimes when we touch

You ask me if I love you
And I choke on my reply
I'd rather hurt you honestly
Than mislead you with a lie
And who am I to judge you
On what you say or do?
I'm only just beginning to see the real you

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

Romance and all its strategy
Leaves me battling with my pride
But through the insecurity 
Some tenderness survives
I'm just another writer
Still trapped within my truth
A hesitant prize fighter
Still trapped within my youth

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

At times I'd like to break you 
And drive you to your knees
At times I'd like to break through
And hold you endlessly

At times I understand you 
And I know how hard you've tried
I've watched while love commands you
And I've watched love pass you by

At times I think we're drifters
Still searching for a friend
A brother or a sister
But then the passion flares again

And sometimes when we touch
The honesty's too much
And I have to close my eyes and hide
I wanna hold you til I die
Til we both break down and cry
I wanna hold you till the fear in me subsides

I am sorry~~ T.T

Dear Shumun,

Although you might  never read this. But I just gonna say that I am sorry. Hah! I will say sorry to you leh~~~

Piggy~~(What I used to call you everyday) After more than 10 years, finally I realize why choose him but you didn't choose me. Maybe the path I choose is too hard for you. I understand that and there's nothing wrong with that.

Some time I remember our moment together. When I call you piggy and you were so shy till your face blushed.(Still do not admit by that time). Piggy... you are the only women I love for my live time though I might married someone but you just cannot be replaced.( Privilege of the first one..LOL)

Do you know I meet your bf everyday when I went to had my lunch when I was working at Fraiser business park? Hahaha, he certainly spot me!

Piggy~~ I am very happy you found your love, and it had been more than 10 years you guys were together. Faster get married, I wanna become the god father wei.

Piggy~ Do you remember when we say good bye? The moment when both you and me cry like mad and remind both of our bad habit?

I still remember I told you not to slept soo long, remember your goals, always find someone you love and stay with him. (Which you did! I am proud of you~）

And I remember you told me, not to be too ambitious, watch my spending, take care of my health and always go for my goal( Which I did as well....I achieve what I cannot imagine while I was more than 10 years ago)

Piggy~~ I am super happy for you. You got over me, but i never got over you. Maybe that's my curse.

My curse that I was so childish that time, never appreciate you and finally  now I realize how foolish I am. You given more than enough chance and I just neglect it. I was a jerk~~ a jerk that only look for accomplishment......How ironic while I got it then I realize what I lost, something so precious so precious.

It was a right choice to abandon me. It is a consolation we still keep in contact. Sometimes say hi and ask how are you etc.......that is more than enough.

Mun~~(Always what I called you when I manja you)..

Faster married, don't feel unsecured. I can see from you bf face he love you as much as I do.

Become a mummy~~

I love you always mun~

And I always miss you~~

Everyday, every night~~

Again, mun arr~~ I am sorry...对不起~~我不应该让你流泪~~我不应该~~当初我不懂原因，现在我懂，已经太迟了。对不起~~这个内疚应该会跟我一世人吧~~祝你幸福啊~


这也是我一直以来很想很想和你说的话~~埋在我心里没办法说。好好照顾自己，别忘记我们的承诺啊~~~~无论你是遇到什么，我还是会帮你，还是会在你身边。那时候你爆胎凌晨短讯我，我还记得。那时候我知道，你在完全找不到人的时候，会想起我。

Mun~~对不起~~对不起~~T.T

我永远想念你啊~~~